I was instantly upset for the children and families who love our school, and then I started to think of the staff. We are a staff of teachers who considered ourselves extremely lucky to have teaching jobs in this economy, and in California where record numbers of teachers are being laid off each year. Now we are joining the masses of unemployed teachers. Being in a private school we considered ourselves to be safe from lay-offs.... boy were we wrong.
I am now extremely frustrated with a lot of things, but my decision to be a teacher in general is the one that is constantly plaguing me. Not that I don't love being a teacher, but I don't think I would have ever allowed myself to chose this career if I'd known how incredibly hard it would be to have a job. Next year will likely mark the 2nd year out of 4 that I've been out of school that I won't have a teaching job.
Although I know I will be able find something to keep me occupied next year, it is still extremely hard to put so much time into a career, and constantly feel defeated by it.
I know that I lot of other people are in the same boat, not just teachers. I know I need to stop throwing myself a pity party, and look at the positives in this situation, but now I'm just mad.
Now I am constantly thinking about what I should do now.
- Should I take this as a sign and try to go back to school for something more steady and needed in this economy ? I'm only 25, it's definitely not too late, but it's not like there's really anything that guarantees a good job these days...
- Should I weather the storm, and hope that eventually the education system in the country will sort itself out and sub in the mean time?
- Should I try to convince CAhusband to look for a job somewhere else so that I have a better opportunity at finding a job? Surely it isn't this hard everywhere in the country.... nevermind, it probably is.
I think I've rambled enough, so I'm going to leave it at that for now. Sorry for the Debbie Down post, I just have WAY too many thoughts in my head about this right now, and thought it might help to get them all down.
I hope you're all having a great week!